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Jan Kenneth Rubian | 22 | MANILA. PH. | NINJA | Student of Life | Simple. Packed with BIG DREAMS! Awesome since '91. Do not deprive yourself for your Father in heaven is King of all Kings. Ala-Eh City •
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The hurt in your eyes will never disguise the sparkle in there before
And I know that there is so much more
Than you’re showing’

The clouds in your head will bring in tears but I will catch every drop
Even if it don’t ever stop
Cause you’re worth it, worth it

When you fight for every breath
And the waves are over head
Let me lay your mind to rest

I will stand by you
When all of your dreams are shattered
And Your world is left in tatters
When you’ve lost we lost together
I’ll stand by, I will stand by you

I’ve almost cried hearing this song. I can feel the warmth of God’s love embracing me through this season. Though I may not understand now, but I know God will stand by me all the way. 

Saturday, October 18, 2014
Monday, October 13, 2014

I have been always selfish, and I always end up seeing myself empty.

This has been the thought inside my head habang nakikinig ako ng devo/sharing ng bagong group na na-attendan ko. I can’t help pero sobra akong nalungkot. Kasi for the past few weeks talaga ramdam ko kung gaano ka-dry ang spiritual walk ko. I haven’t opened my bible for almost 3weeks. Sira yung prayer time. Kung maka-attend man ng service, eh masabi nga lang na naka-attend.

I’m trying my best na makabalik. Binabalikan ko kung saan ba ako tumigil kasi baka pwede ko balikan. Pero anlabo na ng daan. And yes, naramadaman ko na I’m already out of track.

Naisip ko, anu ba yan. I’ve always thought of myself first. Laging ako muna, kung ano yung sa tingin ko makakabuti sakin, kung ano yung profit na makukuha ko. Pero, nothing happens, emptiness lang. Kulang, tuyo. I have always wanted to ask God, na "Lord ang promise mo, riches, bakit puro debts? Lord sabi mo, good health, bakit puro sakit? Lord sabi mo, peace, bakit ang ingay, magulo? Lord, sabi mo fullness, pero bakit emptiness?"

And in the end, ibabalik ko lang lahat ng tanong sa sarili ko. “Sino ba inuna mo? Inaalagaan mo ba sarili mo? Bakit ka ba nag-aalala? Kelan ka ba nakontento?” Diba, parang sampal sakin lahat.

Pero ang Lord,di tulad ko. Never Siya natuyuan at never naubusan para sakin. Laging bago. Laging fresh. And this has been God’s message for me. Ako lang naman yung hinihintay Niya. And walang doubt, open arms Niya ako sasalubungin. Nakakahiya, nag-compromise ako, as always. Naging unfaithful. Nag-rebelde. At alam Niyang lahat ng yun. But then, I am reminded that by His grace, it changes everything. Kahit gaano pa ako na-mantsahan. Kaya Niyang alisin lahat at gawing bago para sakin.

Unti-unti. Slowly but surely, makakabalik ako Father. Alam ko akay-akay Mo ako. At kahit pa ilang beses ako bumitaw, Ikaw, patuloy na kakapit hanggang sa mabuo Mo akong muli.

~J.K

Sunday, October 12, 2014
It is not because I choose You, but because You first chose me. Sobrang salamat sa pagmamahal Panginoon! 

It is not because I choose You, but because You first chose me. Sobrang salamat sa pagmamahal Panginoon! 

Accept The Things That You Cannot Change

Weeks past and it has been the message that I’m still getting. Acceptance.

Minsan nakakapagod din na labanan ang mga bagay kasi you’re thinking na ikaw ang may kontrol nito, pero ang totoo hindi. Naubos na ang lakas, naubos na pasensya mo and in the end ikaw pala yung talo. What’s the sense of fighting hard? You’re pushing yourself too hard then talo ka din naman pala. Totoo pala talaga yung you have the power to choose your battles and you have to choose wisely.

And I just realized that acceptance is the key. Pagtanggap sa mga bagay na kailanma’y wala kang kontrol para mabago ito. Change is inevitable. Di mo alam kung kailan magbabago ang mga bagay na pinanghahawakan mo.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

"The grass withers, the flower fades, but the word of our God will stand forever." ~ Isaiah 40:8


If there’s one thing na kailanmay di magbabago. Ito yung pagmamahal ni Lord sa akin at sayo. Salamat Panginoon!

Friday, October 3, 2014
"Kung napapagod ka na, always remind yourself kung bakit ka ba nagsimula, kung asan ka na ngayon at kung bakit kailangan mong magpatuloy."

"If kaya pang ayusin, pipilitin. But if this is really what both of you need, then just be strong. Magiging mahirap at masakit, pero hopefully all the pain will be worth it

#ATM, watching One More Chance for the nth time. What a movie on a Friday night. Right? 
I can still remember nung pinanood ko ‘to mag-isa way back 2007, a week after we broke up ng first girlfriend ko during high school days. Damang-dama ko ang movie na ‘to during that time. Kahit pa yung mga kasamahan ko sa movie house eh puro magpa-partner, keri lang. Moment ko yun eh. Patago pa yung pag-iyak ko kahit alam ko namang madilim. Chos! Hahahaha! 
PS: Pagpasensyahan nyo na po. Flashback Friday naman diba. Bati tayo ah! 

#ATM, watching One More Chance for the nth time. What a movie on a Friday night. Right? 

I can still remember nung pinanood ko ‘to mag-isa way back 2007, a week after we broke up ng first girlfriend ko during high school days. Damang-dama ko ang movie na ‘to during that time. Kahit pa yung mga kasamahan ko sa movie house eh puro magpa-partner, keri lang. Moment ko yun eh. Patago pa yung pag-iyak ko kahit alam ko namang madilim. Chos! Hahahaha! 

PS: Pagpasensyahan nyo na po. Flashback Friday naman diba. Bati tayo ah! 

Tuesday, September 23, 2014
"Bigyan mo ang sarili mo ng time to grieve kung kailangan. If you need to shout, shout it out. Kung kailangan umiyak, umiyak ka. Hayaan mong maramdaman mo na nasasaktan ka, kasi it’s a sign na hindi ka manhid, na tao ka. Nasasaktan. Endure it. Sabi nga diba, pain demands to be felt. Pero pagkatapos nun. You have to make a stand, a decision. A choice to move on. A decision for you to wipe away all those tears and to let go of the pain and move forward for you to be a better person and individual."
Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Friends that makes work bearable until the next restday. Blessed to have this team. :) 

Monday, September 15, 2014
Anonymous:
sir maganda ba ang album ng victory worship na radical love?

Yes po. Indeed. 

Check out for other newly released official music videos: VICTORY WORSHIP©

You can also buy "Radical Album© online through iTunes, click this link

Share God’s love through music. :) 

Sunday, September 14, 2014

There’s no sin too great
There’s no pain too deep
The cross, declares it is done
There’s no shame too real
That His love won’t heal
Forever the victory is won.

~Grace Changes Everything
Victory Worship© 2014

 
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